A Testimony of Transformation
Like many, I have a beautiful Testimony of Transformation because of how God has changed my life. I would like to share my testimony with you in hopes that it will encourage you to keep on seeking to know the Lord and to step into the greater things He has for you. Fire and Colour is all about being transformed to have passion for the Lord. The greatest commandment is for us to love God passionately with all of our being:
…“‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment.” (Matthew 22:37)
For years I was a member of a Christian church, which I attended most Sundays. I had been water baptized and was part of a small bible study group. But I had a few problems:
- I lacked a passion for the Lord.
- I had no desire to worship God through song, and I felt fake because I didn’t really mean the words I was singing in church.
- I didn’t like to read the Bible at all.
- I found church boring and I couldn’t stand it longer than a one-hour service.
- I couldn’t sit quietly with the Lord to pray for more than 5 minutes.
- I was afraid to share Jesus with others – especially because I felt fake because of all of the above.
I knew something was wrong. I wasn’t even confident that I was saved from hell. But I was part of a church so everything must be ok, right? I did my “time” every Sunday, had the right friends, and didn’t smoke or go to any wild parties. And people often told me how I was such a nice person (I was the quiet type). So everything is ok, isn’t it?
“Not everyone who calls out to me, ‘Lord! Lord!’ will enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Only those who actually do the will of my Father in heaven will enter.” (Matthew 7:21)
No, everything was not ok. My life contradicted the truths of scripture. My life contradicted the passion and love that many of our bible heroes set as our example, and I had to change. I began to seek the Lord out of fear for my own soul. I started to take God seriously; He had my attention.
One day I received an invitation from a friend I knew in high school to attend a youth rally. Many young people from different churches were meeting for a night of worship and teaching. This was new for me – I had never seen people excited to worship the Lord! Some of the young people there were praying in tongues and weeping. I felt very uncomfortable to say the least! At one point, a young man began to cry out in a loud voice. I don’t remember all he said, but when he spoke the words “Come to Me,” they cut to my heart. His words were so special and powerful. I knew that God was crying out through that young man. God wanted me and all the other young people there to come to Him.
After the event, I went home and told my mother about the young man crying out during the rally. It was difficult to get the words out because I found myself in tears. God had really touched me with His prophetic words through that young man. I continued to cry for a long time. God was softening my heart.
Later on, my mother invited me to a church that she had recently visited with a friend. “This place is so amazing,” she said, “God is really in this place.” I was curious so I went with her to a Sunday service. “Wow, this place is different,” I thought. “People here are really in love with Jesus!” People were raising their hands, weeping, dancing, and full of smiles and joy. Some people even shook because of God’s presence. The pastor spoke truth from the Word of God, not concerned about offending the people, but wanting them to be freed from sin and darkness. After the service, I cried again, not because I felt touched by God, but because the service felt so long! It was 3 hours – which was 2 hours more than what I felt I could handle. But deep down inside I had such a strong feeling that I HAD to go back. So I started going with my mother every Sunday.
Once I began attending this church, I felt God working in my life even more. I began to get “hungry” for Him because I was around other people who were hungry for Him. I began to read the Bible more. I wanted to know more about what God was really like. I still felt that I lacked the passion for God that I saw in others and so I asked the Lord, “What am I missing?”
Sometime later, there was opportunity to go to a 3-day youth conference with my church. It was a little outside of my comfort zone, especially because it was an overnight trip, but I went anyways. It was just like the youth rally. The people there were so hungry for God; they danced, they sang, they worshipped, and they prayed. At one point, the speaker had an altar call for people to receive Jesus, if they hadn’t before. He also asked people to come forward if they wanted to receive the Baptism of the Holy Spirit. I had heard about the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, and I had read about it in a Joyce Meyer book. I gathered up what courage I could and went forward for prayer. One of the ministers prayed for me and I felt the Holy Spirit touch me. It was so powerful! And I can say that from that time onwards, I have NEVER been the same.
When I returned home, my mother noticed a big change in me. I felt so much of the love of God in me and I kept on wanting to hug her! I had a deeper hunger to know the Lord and spend more time with Him in prayer. When I worshipped in church, I felt the fire of the Holy Spirit stir in me and I actually meant the words I was singing. I couldn’t help but jump up and down! I started to experience “the power from on high” to be a witness for Christ (Luke 24:49). I began to use my gifts to glorify the Lord. I had been transformed.
And I have been on an incredible journey with the Lord ever since. It hasn’t been easy. After all this took place, the Lord began to peel me like an onion. He began to show me the dark areas of my soul where I needed His light to shine. I still have to seek Him every day to deal with the sin in my heart so He can clean me up. It takes work – you have to be willing to visit hurts from your past and be humbled. It is a process that won’t be complete until we die and are resurrected with Him. But I have Jesus now to walk with and my desire is to live my life for Him. I am so thankful for all He has done for me and all He continues to do! I want everyone else to be able to experience the abundant life that He gives (John 10:10). You can’t have any real peace without Jesus (John 14:27). Life is truly meaningless without God and I don’t want to waste my life. We will all have to stand before God one day and give an account of what we did with the free gift of life he offers us through Jesus.
I hope my testimony of transformation inspires you. If you have a testimony of transformation, I would love to hear it! Our testimonies are so powerful (Revelation 12:11)! Please share below.